Rest in Peace

I just found out my that my paternal grandpa passed away. He's been ill and hospitalized for the past few weeks, and in ailing health for longer, but it still feels surprisingly sudden and unexpected. I think I wasn't prepared for the finality of it all. As if I've been subconsciously clinging to this whispering notion that he wasn't really going to die. And now, in the aftermath, I'm not really sure how to feel.

He was my dad's dad and while we didn't grow up living in the same city, or even the same state, I do have fond memories of him through the years. One auditory memory that especially comes to mind was his hearty, scratchy laugh. I'm comforted by the fact that the last time I saw him, he was healthy, happy, and smiling. That's a memory I will hold on to. I can only hope he's in a better place now and my grandma will be okay in his absence and come to accept and absorb the reality that he is no longer with us.

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Stacy said...
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Travel-Bunny said...

*hugs*

At 23, I haven't fully grasp the whole concept of parting with a love one and i doubt i will EVER grasp that!

Memories of him everlasting.

A New England Girl said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. xoxo

Vivian said...

I'm so sorry to hear that, Michelle. My condolences to you and your family. Keep the happy memories...

Hugs xxo

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry! Condolences to your family, especially your grandmother...

Rachel said...

Oh, my dear - I'm so sorry. It gets easier, slowly, slowly, slowly. Just keep remembering.

carolina @ patagonia gifts said...

oh I'm so sorry... happy memories are the best thing you can keep inside your heart. he will love that. hugs.

Little E said...

Sorry to hear about you and your family's loss. Josh and my thoughts are with you.

Carrie said...

I'm so sorry Michelle. I know this must be very hard on you. You and your family are in my thoughts.

Carol {Everyday Delights} said...

I'm so sorry to hear that....

Carissa Thilgen said...

I'm so sorry to hear of the passing of your grandpa. even when someone is sick, it can still feel unexpected as you say, and it doesn't make the loss any easier. hold onto your memories-- they will bring you comfort. you and your family are in my thoughts.

Michelle said...

I hope the days get brighter and the light in your life continues to shine even though you've lost a loved one. I'll remember you in my prayers this week. Thanks for always adding some encouragement to my mornings. I hope we can all be a little more encouraging to you in your time of need!!

Joanna Goddard said...

oh i'm so sorry to hear that. i hope you are hanging in there. thinking of you. xoxo